Sick and Tired [TW: Racism, Rape, Homophobia]

Maybe it’s because I’ve been beyond stressed out lately. Maybe it’s because I haven’t slept much in the last week. Maybe it’s because I’m struggling to juggle a full-time job, a full course load, and still maintain some kind of social life.

Whatever the reason is, I am sick and tired of being a feminist. I’m tired of constantly defending myself, of trying to explain things. Like all of this:

I am tired of female politicians getting asked silly, vapid questions. As if who your favorite designer is has ANY impact on your ability to lead.

I know that feel, Hil.

I am tired of having to walk down the quad after class and listen to a group of fraternity brothers refer to people as “fags,” as if being LGBTQ is an insult.

I am tired of hearing my male friends complain about being “friendzoned.” I am tired of the idea that just because you are nice to a girl and give her a shoulder to lean on, she should automatically fall in love with you and/or enter into a sexual relationship with you.

Clearly your logic is perfect.

I’m sick and tired of listening to male politicians trying to make decisions about MY body. I’m tired of people like Paul Ryan, the VICE PRESIDENTIAL NOMINEE of the Republican Party, trying to argue that RAPE is a form of conception.

I’m tired of not being able to have a conversation about poverty in America without someone bringing up “welfare queens.” Just like Melissa Harris-Perry, I am sick of hearing that poor people are lazy, that they don’t work hard, that single mothers struggling to make ends meet just want to suck on the government tit.

I’m tired of telling people that I write and edit for a feminist blog and getting looks of disdain and dismissal. I’m tired of people assuming anything about me or my sexuality because I’m a feminist. I’m tired of being told that I make a big deal out of “stupid” things. I’m tired of being told to learn to take a joke. I’m tired of my very righteous anger being dismissed as the rantings of a silly young person who will calm down once she’s out of school.

Oh and speaking of jokes, I’m tired of rape jokes. I’m tired of the way we talk about rape in this country. I’m tired of listening to people talk about a man who raped a young woman, only to criticize her for drinking. I’m tired of hearing men look at a girl in a short skirt and remark that she’s asking for it.

I am REALLY tired of Men’s Rights Activists. Newsflash [white] men: you have your rights. All of them. You have had them since you started oppressing everyone who looks remotely different from you or has different genitalia THOUSANDS OF YEARS AGO. Just because women and people of color are FINALLY starting to gain the same rights you’ve enjoyed since the beginning of time doesn’t mean we’re trying to chip away at yours.

Oh, and speaking of privileged men doing heinous things, I am TIRED of male celebrities (Chris Brown, Michael Fassbender, Sean Penn) BEATING women and still getting to have their careers, while Kristen Stewart is being shut out of and FIRED from films because she had an affair. I am tired of the slut-shaming message that this sends to women my age and our younger sisters. I am so fucking sick of young women being told that our sexuality, our exploits, are there for the world to judge, while men who commit acts of VIOLENCE get off relatively unscathed.

I am sick of people creating online games where you can virtually BEAT a woman simply because she called out the gaming world for it’s misogyny.

But I’m also sick and tired of feminists. I’m tired of feeling like you have to have a college degree to be a good feminist. I’m tired of working class women being shut out of this movement. I’m tired of feminists criticizing other women for not identifying as feminists, even though the movement has largely excluded or tried to speak for women of color and working class women. I’m tired of seeing nothing but privileged, upper class white women leading the movement. I’m tired of people like Jessica Valenti using feminism to criticize First Lady Michelle Obama for identifying first and foremost as a mother, instead of considering the cultural implications behind that choice, and remembering to check their privilege at the door.

I’m sorry if this post seems repetitive. But I’m not going to apologize for all of the anger I am feeling right now. I am tired of apologizing for my feelings, for my passion, and for sticking up for what I believe in.

Is it exhausting? Absolutely. Can it feel completely isolating? Hell yes.

But if I can get through to just one person with these blog posts, or with the outrage I express at injustice, then it’s worth it.

6 thoughts on “Sick and Tired [TW: Racism, Rape, Homophobia]

  1. Seconded.

    The “funest” part of taking off the blinders and getting it is how painfully obvious the patriarchal crap is and people go along with it because its the norm.

    Arguing against the norm, just to establish a reasonable axiomatic basis (oh hey the playing field *isn’t* level) is always a tiring uphill battle because the status quo has justifications and counter-arguments built in (see common sense).

    I just starting following this blog, but I like what I see. Please keep doing what you’re doing, people are watching and learning, honest. 🙂

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    1. Thank you so much for that comment! We love to hear that people are getting something out of our blog!

      I think you’re absolutely right about it being an uphill battle. A lot of my friends and co-workers don’t come from a feminist background so pointing out inequities can feel pointless at times, because I get so much pushback. A common retort I get is that people are just “too sensitive” about issues of sex and race. Which is really easy to say when you’re a white male and therefore the norm of the world. It definitely makes me think twice about bringing up anything remotely feminist.

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      1. I’m such a fan of the ‘you’re too sensitive’ trope. Wouldn’t be nice to turn the argument around and opine “well, you are not being sensitive enough to important issue “x””. Of course people don’t like being questioned on their assumptions; but on the upside you can quickly differentiate between who your more valuable and less valuable acquaintances are…

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  2. Hello! I understand your pain and being sick and tired! That is what the patriarchy wants-to wear us down..to make us question if we as Feminists are doing the right thing. Me-I am tired of men always trying to invade my space and pick me up. I live in nyc and the guys here are really insane and dangerous. From the guy wearing a doo rag and sporting a menacing face to the businessman in a 400.00 suit ant tie-they’re all like sharks looking for prey. Some nut in a car asked me if he could “talk to me!” I said no. He then pulled over to the curb and tried again. Unfuckingbelievable. Weird-horrible things happen to me almost everyday. But it’s “my fault” right? I’m just trying to get from point a to point b. And the cab drivers here are the worst. Disrespectful/sexist/etc to many women who ride home alone late at night. But it’s our fault right? We must stay strong and keep our eyes on the prize–equality for women!! These are just obstacles we must face….

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  3. thank you for your post, im from lima, peru. a very homophobic country and well evryday at work i see forced to support homophobic jokes like u mention, and it’s really hard for me because my family doesnt support gay neither, they think is sumthing really bad and now support this at work or even with my friend ( whom i decided no to see them anymore), they think that being efeminate is bad and it’s strictely related to being gay, wich is worst for them, they make rape jokes all the time, they talk about bad things bout gay and women, so i’ve been stressed all this time and then im being depressed cause isolation and started going to the pychologist and finding some group that supports gays right, you know. i wish this cud bullshit stopped, i think like evryone sees me less than human being and it is worst when u tell them, they reject u, push u out, but after all it’s good to know that are ppl who can speak this bout it. thank you for ur post, im gay, im black and im proud of that and i will keep fighting for right. greetings from peru

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