Unapologetically Black & I Don’t Need to Explain.

Hey y’all, it’s @ferociousfem here with my last post for the semester, wow it’s been a ride! For my last post, I’m going to get a bit personal with you all because I’ve honestly had enough of this and I’m over it. Again, this is my personal opinion so I apologize in advance if I offend anyone.

Recently, I was asked to submit a piece of work to a panel based on my experience here at James Madison University, as a black student at a predominantly white institution (PWI). If the submission is chosen it will be on display in a gallery on campus in one of the academic buildings by the Africana Studies department for Black History Month. At first, I was convinced I had it in the bag, I was just writing about being me– wrong– I struggled coming up with something to submit. I was so frustrated with trying to write something new I even asked if I could submit an old poem I wrote last year but it didn’t include being black so it wasn’t accepted. — Hang in there y’all I’m getting to the point.

Why? Why is it that we’re in 2018 and I need to tell my “story” of being black. Why is this a trending topic? I do not owe my story to anyone and quite frankly no one deserves it. Why is it when I enter spaces as a black woman on campus I must automatically have the same opinion as another black student on campus? NEWSFLASH — I don’t.

Also, just because I identify as black doesn’t mean I want to discuss my experience as being black like I’m some sort of foreign being and I want my non-POC (person of color) counterpart to “take me to their leader”.

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— I’m just joking, but I’m also very serious.

Still don’t know where I’m coming from? Let me shed some light for you with an example, I know I am not alone with this experience either but guess what, no one has to share if they don’t want to. Because as a minority we don’t owe you or anyone, anything.

My sophomore year I was enrolled in a general education class, History and we were required to have a small discussion portion in addition to the lecture. Surprise, surprise, I am the only POC in the class. I honestly don’t remember exactly what we were discussing but I think it was about slavery and on the spot, the professor looked to me for my opinion on the matter as if there weren’t other capable students of shedding their opinion. This professor might’ve thought he had a great intention but it certainly didn’t give that impact and as a result, I dropped the class and found a better fit for me. Looking back now I should’ve gone to the professor and let him know that made me uncomfortable but young me wasn’t comfortable doing that and if you were in my shoes would you have been? Why was it my job to do that anyway?

Anyway, please do not get me wrong, I love being black and I’m so damn proud of it but why is that the only thing I’m identified as when I walk in the spaces that I do. Now, please do not get this confused with color-blindness. Yes, I am black.

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I’m also a woman, a Christian, cis-gendered, able-bodied and plenty of other identities that make me, ME, besides my blackness. — As an ally stop making POC talk about their experiences and if you don’t think you’re an ally you have another thing coming and I don’t have the time for that– tonight, anyway.

It’s been a great semester and I wish everyone luck on their finals! @ferociousfem out!

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5 thoughts on “Unapologetically Black & I Don’t Need to Explain.

  1. YES YES YES I resonate with all of this! Yes! I’m here for all of it. It’s the struggle between folks understanding their privilege and lifting people up with their experience–and then placing us as the microphone for oppression. I love my identity but there’s also other aspects about me that are interesting–why is it that QTPOC and POC in general are never asked to speak on their scholarship? A lot of this upsets me and I’m trying to find my way! I feel this so much–loved this post! ❤ sending you love!

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  2. Wow, just wow! This was absolutely incredible, and I really needed to read this. Thank you so much for being so honest, I feel as though so many professors unintentionally tokenize minorties and it’s so frustrating. They act as though one person is going to speak up and completely end racism or homophobia in the classroom, and this puts so much pressure on students and makes them uncomfortable. It’s so problematic!

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  3. Wow, just wow! This was absolutely incredible, and I really needed to read this. Thank you so much for being so honest, I feel as though so many professors unintentionally tokenize minorties and it’s so frustrating. They act as though one person is going to speak up and completely end racism or homophobia in the classroom, and this puts so much pressure on students and makes them uncomfortable. It’s so problematic!

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  4. “Also, just because I identify as black doesn’t mean I want to discuss my experience as being black like I’m some sort of foreign being and I want my non-POC (person of color) counterpart to “take me to their leader”.” Okay, so I am not black, but I am a white-passing Latinx but like I FEEL THIS – ESPECIALLY because I lived abroad most of my life and people ogle and want to know everything and then treat me like a foreign being. AND THEN I HAVE TO JUSTIFY THAT I AM LATINX with speaking Spanish? Because for some reason that’s the only way of validating oneself? I don’t know.. Anyways, thank you for this post because honestly, your posts are always ones that I looked forward to. Thanks again and good luck on your finals!

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  5. This is so important and I’m really glad you shared your story!! I agree that you really shouldn’t even have to explain yourself in the first place and justify your existence just because people are ignorant and need to have things explained to them hundreds of times. Great post!!

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